Its been a while friends and life throws so many curve balls you have to stay quick on your feet and not succumb to defeat. If you give up before your next step that could have been the step you have been waiting for your whole life. We have come to far and to turn back now, that is just blasphemy. Pressing forward with this faith brewing fire within us with passion. Music is our remedy through the insanity.
Honesty sets you free right? Well here's some honesty for you. I quit my job because I lost my mind, the mind "lossage" (<-totally not a word, or is it? hmmm) also made me cut my hair which I have no regret. It was time for a change, and boy what a change indeed. I still haven't found a job I was ready to pack up my life and run home to mommy. No Shame! My main concern was my band and I was ready to quit the band and start over in Boston, only for financial reasons (i hate money). For sure a part of my soul would have been taken from me and the repair would leave a scar that would last forever. My life is my music with my band and some people just don't understand how i feel about my band a little over obsessed but hey if you love like I love then you love hard and forever. Cold weather and snow I hate but I would have to deal, the comfort of home would have kept me warm. Since moms all churchychurchy I don't know how long it would last before I lost my mind in debates with her anyway on the whole religion topic. I love that lady regardless, through it all in GOD I trust. Anyways I felt hopeless in everything, I felt like I could do so much but I can't do anything, and I found myself straying away from a lot of really good people who i adore. I realize that is not the person I am and I'm definitely trying to get back to the AB/Tammy/Tommy/Novel-T/Perxii (whatever you call me, its all me) that everyone loves (bare with me and my transformation it takes time). More importantly getting back to the soul that i know and love but just better. I'm still fighting to stay here in Orlando, right now as I update this I'm back and forth filling out applications.
Recording the album with so much on my mind and soul i feel as though i could have done so much more. There was those should have, would have, could have moments when listening back to the album that is currently done. Overall the album has a feel like none other and I am very proud of the hard work these guys have put into it. We can not be compared to any other band currently or before us. We may have a similar messages to some extent but this movement is on a level of no comparison. Just to think we are on the way to bigger and better, onward and upward. There's no gimmicks or false advertising here, its either your with us or just get out the way as we pass you by on the way to our destiny or as i like to call it THE FUNK YEAH MOON. So much to accomplish with SNAFU there's no way I can leave so send me some positive vibes to stay in Orlando and fulfill all my endeavors, the Universe has my back but none-the-less pray and meditate that all goes according to our souls desires. What I have realized is me judging myself and criticizing myself and not listening to my intuition is where I find major fault. I snapped out of that nightmare quick. Always go with your gut feeling it wont steer you wrong. People expect us to be a certain way as artists and when we don't live up to their expectations its all types of fuckery that comes out of their mouths. Chill out we have our own high expectations and you are entitled to your opinion. Its hard enough doing what we are doing and we will always get reviews that we love, like, dislike, or "hated it". But I'd rather get criticized on being original in our own work than a copycat of the norm. We are a DIY band and we are spreading our good graces throughout the land the bast way we can. Community driven with a divine purpose to connect with each soul.
Through it all I have written more songs, short stories, and poetry. The experience has opened my eyes to what I truly need and what I truly love and the next step is soon to come. Through my struggle my band has faithfully been working hard on getting the album mastered and copywritten (<-spell check). Doing so much like artwork, getting everything ready for the CD release party, booking the venue and other bands and vendors and all of that. As I weep in my corner of financial fuckery, which smells by the way (it smelled bad way before i got there). They have been such an amazing team to do what they do and I am just so grateful for all their hard work and dedication to the band. They never stop and that Jessica is a force to be reckoned with too!
Mark your calendars!!!
CD RELEASE PARTY!!! JULY 21, 2012 AT THE ORLANDO BREWING COMPANY, DOWNTOWN ORLANDO FLORIDA!!!!!!! FUNK YEAH BABY!!!
We all go through our trials and tribulations, we just have to stay positive and focus even harder on what we aim to achieve in this life. Make sure you can live with yourself once you make your final decisions. The fact that I have no job, no money, a bootleg car with no gas in it, bills piling up, no phone...yes NO PHONE (tragedy!) I still have my soul, my heart, my will, my faith, my family here and beyond, and my determination. You cant put a price on that, and it sure ain't for sale!!!
Blessings to you my friends, I will make a strong effort to update as much as possible. Support your local business, artists, and bands!!! Much Love!
~ciao.bless~
AB Novel-T
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